Don't you love when you go to church (bible study, small group, fellowship with friends, etc) and God just speaks RIGHT to your heart? You know...the type of message that you suddenly look around the room wondering if you, in fact, are the only one sitting there and God is speaking straight to you. I LOVE when that happens. It's just incredible that He knows whats on our hearts at all times without us even having to say a word.
I was on call this past weekend (I work for a family with 2 doctors; who were both on call - thus making me on call). I ended up having to go in early on Sunday morning, which meant John was going to go to church alone. (I'm only on call every 2 months or so, so this rarely happens). Around 8:30am, my boss called to tell me she was already done and headed home. Shocked and super excited to be done by 9am, I called John to let him know I'd be able to make the early service with him at 9! We showed up about 5 minutes late, but we were there nonetheless...and together.
Let me just give you a (somewhat personal) preface to our week. It's been on my heart to write this post, though a bit personal. John and I have recently just joined our church, Chapelgate Presbyterian. Over the past few months while attending but not yet members, John and I have just done our tithing when we have cash or a check at church. We hadn't yet declared giving regularly, what, etc. Once we joined last month, John and I were talking about it at home and there was really not a whole lot of "discussing" to it. He said that we needed to figure out what our total joint-salary income was between the two of us (which we did while sitting there) and then figured out what 10% of that was; for the word calls of this from us. After calculating the total amount, I hate to admit it, but I selfishly, automatically said something along the lines of that is far too much for us right now. With our mortgage, bills, trying to save as a young married couple, etc etc etc. HOW SELFISH. I only wish I had realized how completely terrible this was at that time. In fact, I'm pretty sure I did but tried to justify my thoughts with excuses. John was quick to point out that "Jackie-Lane, none of this is ours in the first place. God is letting us keep 90%. 90%!"
At that time, we went online and booked our weekly pledge to our church. 10%. Though, I must say I was still feeling financially stressed to have another major "bill" added to our monthly expenses.
For the word says in Psalm 24:1, "the Earth is the Lord's and its fullness; the world and those who dwell therein." Truth. Everything we have is Gods. Our home, our finances, it's all His. He has blessed us GREATLY and complaining about just giving back 10% of what is His? Talk about disappointed in yourself for feeling so greedy and selfish.
On Sunday, while we were sitting at church, Mike (our pastor) began preaching on this VERY topic that has been fresh in our conversations at home recently. It was as if God was looking straight at me the entire time and speaking into only my ear (though I'm sure I'm not the only one who feels this way - or at least I hope!) In the sermon, our pastor referred to 2 Corinthians 9:7, "Each one must give as he has decided in his heart, not reluctantly, or under compulsion, for God loves a cheerful giver." I was initially giving under reluctance. I didn't feel "cheerful" as I gave. How selfish. again. As I walked away inspired from the message, inspired to give more!, and inspired to give generously and cheerfully, I smiled. Lord Jesus, thank you for what you've given me and please do what you want with the finances you've blessed us with. May you take it and do your will with it and richly bless our church. I pray that you will continue to melt my heart with generosity, for I know you love a cheerful giver.
Friends, I inspire you to do some soul-searching as I have done and will continue to do. Where are our priorities? Where is your heart?
After all, none of it is ours to begin with.
Thanks for walking with us,
JL